I know it's been quite sometime i've been neglecting this precious blog of mine. Honestly, i miss blogging, like how i used to emotionally, dramatically, detailedly blog about my daily life when I was 13. When life was much simpler, but was starting to get complicated as I went through a new phase in life: teenagehood.
Now at almost 15 years, life isn't really as interesting. I wish I could go back to when I was in Secondary One, when my life seemed right.. at first.
The SYF is finally over. Well, our school got the Silver Award for our fifth year! A little disappointed at first but, thankful that we maintained our award and we're proud that we did our very best. :D
I was so speechless when Cikgu asked me about my journey in Malay Dance because I thought of everything that we went through, and also about arwah Cikgu cause i was one of the last to talk, that I literally cried(so emotional ikr) until the only thing I could say was "I'm very happy :'D" Lame rigggggght haiiiih, i know. But, it's just that when I thought of it all, my whole journey with Sukma Irama for the past three years, it's definitely a memory I can never erase cause these people have been like a family to me. And if i had a choice, I would never replace them with any other dancers in the world. i love them very much \m/ :)
I'm currently right in the middle of the Mid-Year Examination Period, with exactly a week of suffering left to go, well, at least for now. In the midst of all this, i still managed to find the time to blog hahaha.
So i've been starting to get used to the suckish schedule of Secondary Three life. I'm starting to be better at my Literature woohoo i feel so accomplished :) BIG thanks to Ms Malyanah for making Unseen Prose sound much, much simpler. Besides that, i find myself getting tired easily nowadays, eventhough there's no more CCA fttb. hmmm
I have been greeted with surprising news, too.
I'm not sure how i'm gonna handle this. I just hope somehow people could understand how I'm trying to deal with it. If only they could step into my shoes and walk around with it. See how i think, and feel. I feel suckish and very sorry to be mean now just so that I could not hurt tht someone further. hmm I guess karma somehow has its ways around me. Life ain't fair anways. I just somehow wish things could go back to the way it used to be.. No awkwardness, no hurting, just... happiness, secret and open.
Sometimes I think i've lost my muchness, you know like an asset about me that makes my life interesting, cos i find myself to be much of a bore nowadays haha. I feel myself so caught up with anything and everything. As you can see the tone of my post is rather monotonous right right right.
I need to lossen up, yeah.
Soon, soon. Now exams must drown myself in all the notes and textbooks with the hope that it will all pay off, seriously. The papers have been downright tough I feel so dead. Hmm crosses fingers the upcoming Papers won't kill me inside. Amin. :)
So, now it's Saturday, used to be the best day of the week, but now it's the most boring day of the week. Madrasah was rather fun though, we talked about prejudice. Now I finally know what that word means lols. Ok side that. I planned to lay off the studying for today, or for now at least. I'm not sure if it's a smooth move since it's the pressurising Exams period, but I guess I really need this time to... relax. People do need to relax sometimes, right? yes. haha ok i just answered my own rhetorical qn wth.
So..... to anyone who happens to be reading this right now. YOU, yes you: I shall end my post here. It's rather long one isn't it? Haha ok i should stop talking. byebye!
assalamu'alaikum.